Thoughts at 2 a.m…

…over cafe mocha. No going back to sleep now, lemmetellya. HA

Well don’t you know, something woke me up at 2:07. Don’t know what it was, but going back to sleep — as much as I wanted to do it — wasn’t happening. Try as I might to turn off my mind, relax and float downstream, something (or things) kept getting in the way.

S’ok. I’m up now. It’s 4:30 and almost time to get ready for the day and rehearsal tonight. By bedtime, I will have been awake for 21 hours — awesome! I wish I had a Keurig to keep at school. Wait, no I don’t. After two cafe mochas yesterday morning, I was  about jazzed out of my mind. Zing! Haha. Stretched as tight as a drum head. Yeah, I should probably stick to decaf tea at the school house. Do the kids a favor. :-)

Anyway, the overriding thought that kept me awake this morning was wishing that everything in my life was OK. It just can’t be that way, can it? Or can it? Seems when you look at the whole picture, no matter how positive and happy things are, there’s always that one issue that bugs the ka-rap out of you. So goes my early morning this day. Wishing I could fix that one thing, but not knowing how.

Gotta let that go.

But hey, guess what? Finkday comes two days early this week. Tomorrow morning, the Thriller drops me off in Columbus for OMEA convention, and picks me up Saturday noon, whereupon we will take off for a mini getaway till Sunday night. Much needed, given my schedule for the next three months.

So yay, no school for me tomorrow or Friday. And all the singers rejoiced.

Today’s wisdom: We cannot change what people think of us. They have to change it, and sometimes it doesn’t matter what we do to bring them around, they still won’t change their minds. I chase the bright, elusive butterfly of how to reconcile myself to it.

Wow, that was heavy. I really need to lay off the cafe mochas, yikes.

7 thoughts on “Thoughts at 2 a.m…

  1. Mavis

    I agree with Stoney. I think you’re pretty darn cool, too. Yes, yes, you’re my sister and some would say I’m biased. If I were to meet you for the first time today – I’d still say the same thing. I would add hysterically funny, too. Cute. Smart. Caring. Hon, you really can’t change the way some folks think about you. You go right on being yourself. Some minds will never be changed. I know this. The ones that really care about you and love you don’t want you to change. So just stay YOU, daggummit! :-) Oh, and have a great time on your trip!

  2. PKPudlin


    When it comes to what people think of you, the only one who really matters is the lady staring back at you in the mirror.


    Apprentice Guru

  3. Suzanne

    Why is it that we let one person/thing/negativity do us in? I don’t know but I hear you and will tell you what everyone else has told you. XOXOXOXO *smewch* Have a great weekend!!!!

  4. Lori

    I lose sleep over that kind of stuff, too. I’m learning to listen to what people have to say, weigh it to see if any of it is valid and needs to be changed, then I try to lay the rest aside and concentrate on what God thinks of me! I even have a CD with peaceful music and a great voice occasionally quoting the things that HE says about me. It helps!

    And, by the way, I think you’re cool, too.

  5. Rat Fink Post author

    Aw, thanks everyone. I have had a good day of clarity, and your comments put the perfect end on it. I will refer to them again while Stoney and I are losing our minds.

    <3 to you all, and I’m not cool — YOU ARE. :-)


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